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It's time to set both feet on the ground.

-said @ 11:17 a.m.

Some people need to burn in hell.

How can such heartfelt pain burn so much? Oh please, if only there was a cure.

May, the most fragile month of the entire year.

-said @ 10:52 p.m.

My cold, black heart, caked with bitterness, is finally washing out.

Dare I retain it?

Perhaps, with bitter, slow, pain.

Maybe I can then love again ...

-said @ 8:23 p.m.

When you think about it, life isn't too bad.

-said @ 3:38 a.m.

I am too moody and emotional these days and I can't stand it. I think it's that time of the month again ...

-said @ 3:37 p.m.

I may be the loneliest person on earth.

Just for this moment.

-said @ 9:20 p.m.

I hate you for hating me.

What you don't know is, I hate myself even more.

-said @ 10:39 a.m.

So next week, I'll be attending a very un-goldfish-like event, an event that epitomizes high school (well, to many people anyway ... definitely not for me): PROM. Funny, but events like Prom are what make me cringe about high school. I'm contradicting myself, because I'm really looking forward to Prom; it'll be tons of fun (I hope). However, I'm just cynical about high school dances and all the other typical high school stuff and its cookiness (maybe you know what I'm talking about; maybe you don't).

Anyway, after about 3 hours of searching for the perfect dress, I finally just settled for one at Robinsons-May because I GOT SO SICK OF SHOPPING. I AM NEVER SETTING FOOT IN ANOTHER MALL FOR THE NEXT 2 MONTHS. Anyway, I suppose my dress is alright; it's a tube dress, like every other dress out there, and it keeps falling! I don't understand why people wouldn't just make dresses with STRAPS. A new concept, no?

But the best part--since I bought the dress so late, I bought it for 50% off!!!!!!!! That totally made my day, because I was so tired of shopping to the point that I really didn't care what the heck I was wearing, as long as it fit me.

But anyway. Here's to my (and many other people's) first--and last--high school dance! THANK BOB THAT I ONLY HAD TO SUFFER THROUGH THIS DRESS-SHOPPING ORDEAL ONCE IN MY LIFETIME (so far).

Actually ... now that I think of it, I'll have to go to hell (the mall) again tomorrow because that dress is just too big for me and I don't want to disgrace myself by flashing the entire student body with my falling dress (ha....ha).

-said @ 8:22 p.m.

The best invention ever to be created would be a device that can exterminate all terrible memories. Because it is terrible memories that do haunt us, forever and ever ...

Everything is so unreal.

-said @ 3:38 p.m.

I took a "personality test" in hopes of proving that those things are wrong. This is apparently who I am:

Portrait of the Counselor (iNFj)

The Counselor Idealists are abstract thought and speech, cooperative in reaching their goals, and directive and introverted in their interpersonal roles. Counselors focus on human potentials, think in terms of ethical values, and come easily to decisions. The small number of this type (little more than 2 percent) is regrettable, since Counselors have an unusually strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others and genuinely enjoy helping their companions. Although Counsleors tend to be private, sensitive people, and are not generally visible leaders, they nevertheless work quite intensely with those close to them, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes with their families, friends, and colleagues. This type has great depth of personality; they are themselves complicated, and can understand and deal with complex issues and people.

Counselors can be hard to get to know. They have an unusually rich inner life, but they are reserved and tend not to share their reactions except with those they trust. With their loved ones, certainly, Counselors are not reluctant to express their feelings, their face lighting up with the positive emotions, but darkening like a thunderhead with the negative. Indeed, because of their strong ability to take into themselves the feelings of others, Counselors can be hurt rather easily by those around them, which, perhaps, is one reason why they tend to be private people, mutely withdrawing from human contact. At the same time, friends who have known an Counselor for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that they are inconsistent; Counselors value their integrity a great deal, but they have intricately woven, mysterious personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.

Counselors have strong empathic abilities and can become aware of another's emotions or intentions -- good or evil -- even before that person is conscious of them. This "mind-reading" can take the form of feeling the hidden distress or illnesses of others to an extent which is difficult for other types to comprehend. Even Counselors can seldom tell how they came to penetrate others' feelings so keenly. Furthermore, the Counselor is most likely of all the types to demonstrate an ability to understand psychic phenomena and to have visions of human events, past, present, or future. What is known as ESP may well be exceptional intuitive ability-in both its forms, projection and introjection. Such supernormal intuition is found frequently in the Counselor, and can extend to people, things, and often events, taking the form of visions, episodes of foreknowledge, premonitions, auditory and visual images of things to come, as well as uncanny communications with certain individuals at a distance.

Mohandas Gandhi and Eleanor Roosevelt are examples of the Counselor Idealist (INFJ).

Creepy, but I think I can identify with a lot of what was said up there. And Eleanor Roosevelt is my hero, so ... yay for being the same "counselor" woohoo! Interesting? Click here to take the test.

-said @ 5:30 p.m.

I'm a terrible person.

-said @ 11:02 p.m.

It is such a secret place, the land of tears.

-Antoine de Saint-Exupery, The Little Prince

-said @ 9:49 p.m.