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It's been SOO hot lately! I can't be at my house anymore because it's like being in a sauna. Instead, I just go to the library or to different stores or whatever and just .. sit there, because it is too damn hot these days.

So I just got off the phone from Nicole. It was sooo good to hear from her! I am very happy that she's having a lot of fun at college .. not too much fun, though, because I'm not there .. just kidding.

My latest pet peeve: little girls with designer items. The other day, I saw these three (eleven year-old? eight year-old?) girls at the mall (attempt to cool off, as usual) with Dooney & Bourke and Louis Vuitton handbags. I mean .. little girls do not need to carry around such things! (Or anybody else, for that matter, since those things are WAY too overpriced over their real worth.) Given the chances that the bags were probably fake, whatever. But STILL .. I mean little girls? Designer bags? Since when did the entire human population become so absorbed in materialism? Even toddlers will sport Gucci sunglasses, soon, I suppose?

The other day I heard that Usher bought a pair of $7000 jeans .. nothing special, just plain ol' denim jeans. For $7000!!! Disgusting.

Anyway. I've been spending money on food lately. In other words, pigging out to the max. Cheesecake, gelato, cinnabuns. Yeah. I think I'm going to expand like a balloon pretty soon.

Oof.

-said @ 3:22 p.m.

Oh my godfather .. I actually ran a mile yesterday for the first time since last year. In twice-as-slow time as freshman p.e. (I know, I'm aging so fast ..)

But hey .. exercise feels good!

I woke up today and my legs and butt are burning like mad. Criminy. Oh well, might as well get used to it .. since that cursed trek up and down Bruin Walk everyday's gonna be a killer.

Speaking of Bruin Walk, I've been packing for college .. very slowly at a time .. but it seems like the more I pack, the more stuff I find I need to pack/buy .. the list of things to buy/pack grows longer and longer each day.

-said @ 10:17 a.m.

Oh I forgot to put in one thing. This, which I got from Michelle, which I thought was hilarious as well as true (well .. most of them, anyway):

As I've Matured...

I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.

I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things.

I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity.

I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity.

I've learned that there is a fine line between genius and insanity.

I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away. And the real pains in the ass are permanent.

Haha.

Oh, here's mine: I've learned .. chocolate is the all-time temporary cure.

P.S. - If you have any YOU want to share, feel free to leave one in the guestbook.

-said @ 12:02 p.m.

I've been completely pigging out for the past couple of days, especially on green-tea ice cream bars, as I am hopelessly addicted to them. Not that I can eat them anymore, because I ate them all.

Maybe it's the junk I'm eating, or maybe it's the lack of exercise, or maybe it's PMS, but I've been so .. impatient? Moody? Quick to anger? I don't know what it is .. but I feel so restless, but at the same time too lazy to do anything about it.

I just wish school could start soon. Like now. It's weird to find myself saying this, how I want to go to school and all, because no one is here anymore, friends and family.

Speaking of family, I'm really worried once school starts, as much as I want to go to school .. it seems like my family gets smaller and smaller every year. Not to mention that my direct family is the only one isolated in the U.S. with everyone else across the world. But now I'm leaving too; okay, only 2 hours away, but still, not close enough for direct contact every day. And with my brother's limited Korean, and my mom's limited English .. it's funny, but when they argue, each shouts at each other in English or Korean, depending on if it's brother or mom .. shouting completely different things to each other. Meaning they are usually on completely different planets regarding everything: school, food, money, etc etc. How am i supposed to be relaxed, calm at school when mom and brother can't even understand each other?

And how am I supposed to be relaxed, calm at school whith no full-time translator for mom? As much as I hated translating every single English word on TV, phone, conversation to her, .. well, we all know how learning Spanish/French/German even in high school hardly sticks. I suppose learning English at age 30-40 is even harder, especially when your first language is Korean, where the grammar is completely the opposite of English.

Oh, and money. Damn, how I hate money! As my grandmother says, "Money is a bitch." Especially with college and all .. racking up on loans each year really doesn't sound pretty. (Although, gratefully speaking, thank you Schwarzenegger for that extra grand in Cal Grant! THANK YOU THANK YOU.) And with brother headed for college in 2 years .. I think we'll all be broke. And as I've learned, money doesn't grow on trees, or in the bank, so ..

awefuiaihef too much stress. And I thought junior year was stressful. Gosh, grades/school worries seem so much simpler (and solvable) compared to .. life.

-said @ 11:11 a.m.